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When do we stop growing up?

November 18, 2022

Ever since I was a kid, I have wanted to grow up and be an adult.

I was eager to get own my place, own my money, work in an office and make a change in the world! I wanted to know a lot, and be able to share my opinion with people.

My mom used to tell me that knowledge would come with experience, so I wanted to experience as soon as possible!

Life granted me part of that, and I “grew up” fast enough… But now, at 26, I still feel like I’m growing up. Sometimes I don’t feel like an adult at all.

Yes, I own my money, I have my own place, I converse with other adults without being deemed incapable (well, most of the time… because some people still think that they know everything)!

But I do not FEEL like an adult, at least like what I imagine being an adult is.

I love to discover things and learn, I love to meet people and make friends, I love to learn new languages and how to express myself more openly, I love candy, I love snow, I hate the rain and I take naps… I still need to Bloom!

I’m basically a toddler in an adult’s body… And it’s fine, I mean, to each their own…

But it’s also very scary, because whenever I try to imagine a future my toddler side prevents me from taking the steps to make it happen.

I do not feel fit enough, good enough, old enough, strong enough to deserve what I really want…

Does anybody else feel like this? Is there a remedy?

When will I stop growing up and start being a grown-up?

When will I be able to see the potential Wonder Woman that I can be?

If anyone has an answer, I’m all ears!!

See you soon,

JA.

explore

March 28, 2021

Landing in Rio for the first time
Struck, by the brightness of the sky
Boarding on the plane to Floripa
So many landscapes before my eyes!

Music in the street

Dancing to the beat

I’m part of the crowd for a couple nights

The sun is up in the sky
The sea is clear, full and warm
I’m on my way to explore
Ready to see so much more

The rain might fall from the clouds
The leaves might cover the ground
I’m on my way to explore
Ready to live so much more

Sitting on Praia Ipanema
Dancing on Copacabana
I’ll never forget this adventure
Brought new horizons to my future

Cocktails at the bar

Friends never too far

I’m a wanderer, now and forever

The sun is up in the sky
The sea is clear, full and warm
I’m on my way to explore
Ready to see so much more

The rain might fall from the clouds
The leaves might cover the ground
I’m on my way to explore
Ready to live so much more

Honesty

February 17, 2021

I’m on the road
I ride on my own
And I can feel the breath of nature around me
I see your smoke
I couldn’t know
But I won’t let this downside have a toll on me

See how we’ve grown
Who’ll take the crown

Deep in your mind
You’ll see the sign
Of what this adventure can bring to both of us
Oh don’t be blind
Oh please be kind
We could be creating a new meaning to this

So far we’ve come
Don’t let us down

You hold grudges
About who you think I’m still
You don’t know this
You don’t notice
The way I make you believe

The world you seek
Has been drawn by me
In all honesty
Between you and me
I will not be humble about this.

I’ve been so calm
I stayed so warm
But they’re still trying to put thoughts into my head
Weren’t you told
To fit the mold?
And can’t you see how bad this is for your own health

I’m here for you
But I’m afraid too

You hold grudges
About who you think I’m still
You don’t know this
You don’t notice
The way I make you believe

The world you seek
Has been drawn by me
In all honesty
Between you and me
I will not be humble about this.

Thanks to the times you got me down
Now I can fly and you’re on the ground.

The world you seek
Has been drawn by me
In all honesty
Between you and me
I will not be humble about this

Oasis

February 4, 2021

I’m a little scared sometimes, especially of birds
I’m a little strange but I happily share my world
It looks like Planet Earth, but it’s something else
I know it sounds like fun, but it’s more complex

There are my words written on the paper
And my stories laid on the computer

I’m a big girl, I say it & I mean it
I’m a dreamer, sometimes I don’t even feel it
I’m a young miss with an old tortured soul
Can’t live the bliss, ignorance is long gone

My mind’s always open, that’s all I’ll ever need
Meeting you at the right time, is how it works for me
There are colorful rivers, flowing with emotions
If u look up at my sky, it’s pouring with ambition

There are my thoughts shared or deeply concealed
And out my mouth, trillions of ideas

Trust me, I welcome you into this world
If you promise, to stay lenient
Trust me, I welcome you into my world
Just be careful, I’m vehement

I’m a big girl, I say it & I mean it
I’m a dreamer, sometimes I don’t even feel it
I’m a young miss with an old tortured soul
Can’t live the bliss, ignorance is long gone

Trust me, I welcome you into this world
If you promise, to stay lenient
Trust me, I welcome you into my world
Just be careful, I’m vehement

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Snowy Beaches – story

January 28, 2021

I live in Toronto, Canada, and I was pretty fortunate to have found a place close to Woodbine Beach as soon as I arrived. I love going to the beach, at any time of the day, no matter the season, walks on the beach always calm me down, put my mind at ease. I always get peaceful vibes from the Lake that inspire me to write.

I went to the beach yesterday and took pictures and videos that have given me inspiration for a couple of lyrics. Positive lyrics and a positive melody, it’s a song about getting back on track after almost giving up.

It’s a very personal song, because I contemplated quitting music for a moment last year. Between the pandemic, the necessity of finding a new place, the loss of some friends, it was a tough time for my creative mind, and I thought I would be better off not playing music/singing/writing songs. I was wrong! And thankfully, I am still able to find inspiration in landscapes, peoples’ smiles and quietude!

Here are some of the pictures that have inspired me (I don’t retouch the photos that I take, so they are a bit raw, just how I like them):